DAY 45

WARNING: I HATE TRUMP THUS FOUL LANGUAGE USED

Oh man. This is SOME deal we have going on here with the STAY AT HOME directive. I cannot beLIEVE we are living through what will be THE most momentous time in history for this current century. Are you kidding me?? I am living during a world wide pandemic?? What the hell??

Holy shit. I feel as if we are all living back in the 1800s when there was the cholera pandemic in England. It was the most horrible living condition you can imagine. Starving people. Death all over the place. No safe housing. People unable to work. Sickness on every street. Pain and disease in every single home. And yet today... with all the miracles of modern medicine, we are witnessing world wide death all OVER the place! Just today we in the United States have 435,000 cases of the coronavirus and 14,000 deaths. Which supposedly will go up to 60,000 by July.

It's crazy. But yessiree. Here we are in 2020 with a world wide plague presenting itself, killing hundreds of thousands of people on the planet. What the hell is GOING ON?? And better yet… who is our leader during this most critical, historical moment?? Don’t even fucking ask.

WE HAVE A BRAINLESS, EVIL, LYING, ANTI-SCIENCE CLOWN LEADING OUR COUNTRY DURING A PANDEMIC WHEN INTELLIGENT, TRUTHFUL DIRECTION IS MOST NEEDED  AS DEATH AND SUFFERING IS EVERYWHERE… YET WE HAVE A LEADER WHO IS MORE CONSUMED WITH LEADING OUR COUNTRY ONLY IN WAYS THAT WILL HELP HIS RE-ELECTION. This is immorality to the core! 

For of all the governmental presidents all over the world, I wind up with the egotistical one who cares little about listening to science and medical experts. One who makes false claims every damn day when we need nothing but facts and proven health directions. One who stands before my country’s microphones every damn day for two hours, touting himself as the savior of the United States of America. One who refuses to follow the recommended directives of the medical communities. And one who is more concerned with the economy first rather than saving lives of his citizens. FUCK TRUMP. 

And fuck all the asshole governors too, who believe in Trump more than the decency of saving lives. Shit. If Andrew Cuomo isn’t an example of brilliant leadership, then I don’t know who is. Besides... you have any idea how many of our Secretaries are merely Acting ones?? They too, have no idea which way to turn and btw... almost all of them are like a revolving door: in the government one day, then boom... replaced and out the next. When we now have Jared Kushner as the coronavirus team development guy, you just know we are in big trouble! EEEKS. Anyway…

Here I am in the midst of an unfathomable worldwide health crisis that so sadly is taking lives of people all around us. It is heartbreaking to one’s soul. With all that said…

I am listening. I am obeying. I’m distancing. And I’ve been hunkered in my home for 45 days so far.

I figured out very early in February something pivotal was occurring so boom. I went to Amazon and ordered every necessary item for protection needed in a world full of disease. You name it. I ordered it. I bought every variety of masks. I bought a zillion rolls of toilet paper. I bought a huge amount of paper towels. I bought gloves, sanitizers. disinfectants, etc. etc. just so I could be safe and supplied for the next 5 months. Because trust me… this deal is not going away anytime soon.

When the hell I’ll be able to enjoy being with friends and family again, I have no clue. I’ve Googled. I’ve phoned. I’ve Facebooked. I’ve Zoomed. I’ve FaceTimed. I’ve emailed. I’ve basically done everything technology will allow me. Wow. Thank YOU Vinton Cerf and Bob Kahn for inventing the Internet! You’ve definitely saved my sanity!

Of course I’ve also stocked my freezer and pantry with enough food to feed a family of 17 for a pretty damn long time. I’ve also worn a bra for maybe only 9 days out of the past 45. YAY COMFORT. And yes… I’ve had to cancel two happy, big deal, out of town celebrations. But… the bottom line is…

I’m surviving. I’m healthy. And, I’m acclimating to all this pretty well, considering. As I told many friends… I’ve now learned that I’m pretty sure I’m going to be okay living in a bullshit nursing home, staying in a nightgown all day and watching TV without ever having anyone visit me. Talk about a dry run.

And I hope that so many others are doing okay during all this, too. Too many people have lost their struggle to stay alive during this vicious virus and my heart aches for all their families. For all I know these 45 days will turn into 85 days but if that's what it takes to keep our fellow citizens safe, boom. I'll do it. Can you imagine what is happening to our economy, btw??

Nothing is going to be the same ever again. The financial recovery from Wall Street to Main Street is going to take years to get where we were before this pandemic. I feel just so badly for business men and women and their employees, for regardless of what economic bills are passed by Congress, these people are going to sweat it out but plenty by the time monies are actually in their pockets once again. I can't even imagine what kind of chaos to expect as everyone who lost their income tries to find new employment. Jesus. Am I ever glad I'm old and retired and getting Social Security. Have you any idea what it's like for the unemployed to get medical insurance? What it's like to have all your savings wiped out in 6 months just so your family can live through all this? It's just mind boggling to me. 

Which brings me back to FUCK TRUMP. If ever there was a time we needed REAL leadership to bring our country to some sort of normalcy on all fronts, it is now! He is SO loving the fact he gets to face the American people, spouting lies day in and day out, for hours no less, in lieu of his disturbing rallies. DON'T WORRY EVERYONE. THIS VIRUS WILL BE GONE IN DAYS AND LIKE A MIRACLE, WE WILL ALL BE WELL AND HAPPY AGAIN. Is this a joke?? It's not the virus that's making me sick. IT'S LISTENING TO MY PRESIDENT! 

All I know is we are all indebted to the hospitals, doctors, nurses, and EVERYone in the medical profession, for their tireless devotion and work ethic. They are working in horrifying conditions during a horrifying time, risking their own lives to save ours. Thank God for such people. Personally, I would have probably thrown in the towel long ago since I take to fear like a fish takes to water. Regardless..

I pray everyone you love comes out well on the other side of all this. I also pray Trump is ousted in November, which by the way, reminds me... how much you want to bet he totally switches up the Presidential election timetable? If you think Nixon was full of dirty tricks, you ain't see NOTHING yet.